Jules Sebastian recalls the moment her brother tragically died while on honeymoon with Guy

‘Nothing could stop the bad thoughts. Or crying’: Jules Sebastian recalls the moment her brother tragically died while on honeymoon with Guy

Jules Sebastian has revealed the horror of finding out her brother had taken his own life while she was on her honeymoon. 

The Sydney stylist, who is married to singer Guy Sebastian, published an extract from her forthcoming book, Tea & Honesty, in Sydney Morning Herald.    

Jules spoke of her devastation at losing her older sibling five days after her wedding while she was exploring the Italian capital of Rome. 

Shock: Jules Sebastian has revealed the horror of finding out about her brother’s death while on honeymoon with husband Guy in her upcoming book Tea & Honesty

Recalling a conversation with her father, she said she remembered him happily doing ‘the worm’ at the couple’s reception.

‘Taken his own life. Those were the words that tangled and tore me open the most. He had decided for himself that his life was over,’ she wrote. 

‘My brother? The one who busted out the caterpillar just five days ago? My brother – my childhood hero – the one I wanted to be just like when I grew up?’

Unexpected: 'Taken his own life. Those were the words that tangled and tore me open the most. He had decided for himself that his life was over,' she wrote. The death occurred five days after her wedding in 2008

Unexpected: ‘Taken his own life. Those were the words that tangled and tore me open the most. He had decided for himself that his life was over,’ she wrote. The death occurred five days after her wedding in 2008

‘The one who was a soccer star, smart, funny, good-looking, kind and popular with everyone?’ she added. 

Jules revealed she and Guy immediately cancelled their honeymoon and took a flight back to Adelaide to be with family. 

‘I closed my eyes, balled myself up in the back of the taxi and tried to distract myself with happier thoughts.’ 

Sadness: Jules revealed how she got the call from her dad. She and Guy rushed back to Adelaide to be with her family after staying in Rome, Italy. Pictured: Margaret and Pat

Sadness: Jules revealed how she got the call from her dad. She and Guy rushed back to Adelaide to be with her family after staying in Rome, Italy. Pictured: Margaret and Pat

‘Nothing could stop the bad thoughts. Or crying. Nothing could stop my brother being dead. He was gone. I knew it, but I couldn’t believe it. I sometimes still can’t.’ 

Jules said the couple struggled after photos from the wedding were published in a magazine. 

‘To this day, that would have to be one of the most surreal moments of my life. The feeling of the world moving on, like nothing tragic had happened.’ 

Tea and Honesty: Heartfelt conversations. Lessons learned. Stories shared by Jules Sebastian will be released March 30 

If you or anyone you know is struggling, contact Lifeline on 13 11 14, Beyond Blue on 1300 224 636 or MensLine Australia 1300 78 99 78. 

Hard: 'Nothing could stop the bad thoughts. Or crying. Nothing could stop my brother being dead. He was gone. I knew it, but I couldn't believe it. I sometimes still can't,' she wrote

Hard: ‘Nothing could stop the bad thoughts. Or crying. Nothing could stop my brother being dead. He was gone. I knew it, but I couldn’t believe it. I sometimes still can’t,’ she wrote