Keeping Up With The Kardashians: Kim Kardashian hints at private struggle with Kanye West

Kim Kardashian hinted at her private struggle with husband Kanye West on Thursday’s episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians.

The 40-year-old reality star was reluctant to share details about her imploding marriage, which was under strain due to Kanye’s actions last summer.

He’d not only mounted a campaign for US President, but started writing a series of Tweets that focused on his feelings about the Kardashians, though the show did not indicate which ones.

Private struggle: Kim Kardashian hinted at her private struggle with husband Kanye West on Thursday’s episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians

Kim tried to keep her personal life to herself during the season 20 episode titled No Comment, but couldn’t help but open up around her sisters Khloé, 36, and Kourtney Kardashian, 41, at their family rental in Malibu.

Asked by mutual friend Malika Haqq, 38, how she was feeling, Kim offered, ‘I’m sane.’

‘So is your husband running for president?’ Malika wondered. ‘Are you gonna be the next first lady?’

‘That is what I’m not sure of,’ a weary-looking Kim replied. ‘It’s been a long day.’

Party time: The 40-year-old reality star drank alcohol from the bottle during a girls night with sisters Kourtney and Khloe designed to cheer her up

Party time: The 40-year-old reality star drank alcohol from the bottle during a girls night with sisters Kourtney and Khloe designed to cheer her up

In a confessional, Kim added, ‘It’s no secret that everyone sees things in the media about my life with Kanye, but I’ve always been really respectful in not talking about [our] issues… I mean, you guys clearly see them on Twitter, so I’m still gonna choose to not really talk about it here.’

‘I try to just support him,’ the mother of four went on, distraught. ‘I don’t want to talk about it on camera. I just don’t want to talk about Kanye or anything.’

Khloé knew that Kim was incredibly upset because she wasn’t even discussing it with family.

Not talking: 'It's no secret that everyone sees things in the media about my life with Kanye, but I've always been really respectful in not talking about [our] issues… I mean, you guys clearly see them on Twitter, so I'm still gonna choose to not really talk about it here,' Kim said

Not talking: ‘It’s no secret that everyone sees things in the media about my life with Kanye, but I’ve always been really respectful in not talking about [our] issues… I mean, you guys clearly see them on Twitter, so I’m still gonna choose to not really talk about it here,’ Kim said

When Malika suggested that Kim send her articles she should pay attention to, Kim said, ‘No, no, you shouldn’t pay attention to it. Please, please don’t.’

‘Bless your heart,’ Malika said.

Days later, Kim sat on an outdoor swing by herself and spoke to someone in Kanye’s camp.

No attention: When Malika suggested that Kim send her articles she should pay attention to, Kim said, 'No, no, you shouldn't pay attention to it. Please, please don't'

No attention: When Malika suggested that Kim send her articles she should pay attention to, Kim said, ‘No, no, you shouldn’t pay attention to it. Please, please don’t’

Presidential bid: 'Bless your heart,' Malika said after she failed to read the room and peppered Kim with questions about her potentially being the First Lady

Presidential bid: ‘Bless your heart,’ Malika said after she failed to read the room and peppered Kim with questions about her potentially being the First Lady

‘I’m happy to come,’ she told them. ‘I mean, I can get on a plane tonight. When I talk to him, he says ”No.” I’m happy to come tomorrow. I’m happy to come next week. Whatever he wants… I’m still happy to come there and be supportive and chill with him, and hang out with him, and I know he needs that.’

In a confessional Kim explained, ‘Kanye’s been in Wyoming and he’s been posting a lot of things on social media, so that is a little bit frustrating. But you just kind of have to separate yourself from what’s going on at home and what’s going on on the Internet. So I’m trying to go to Wyoming so I can be with him.’

Kim’s worried mother Kris Jenner, 65, spoke to Kim’s sisters about it inside the house.

Third party: 'I'm happy to come,' she told a person in Kanye's camp. 'I mean, I can get on a plane tonight. When I talk to him, he says ''No.'' I'm happy to come tomorrow. I'm happy to come next week. Whatever he wants… I'm still happy to come there and be supportive and chill with him, and hang out with him, and I know he needs that.'

Third party: ‘I’m happy to come,’ she told a person in Kanye’s camp. ‘I mean, I can get on a plane tonight. When I talk to him, he says ”No.” I’m happy to come tomorrow. I’m happy to come next week. Whatever he wants… I’m still happy to come there and be supportive and chill with him, and hang out with him, and I know he needs that.’

Getting worried: Kim's worried mother Kris Jenner, 65, spoke to Kim's sisters about it inside the house

Getting worried: Kim’s worried mother Kris Jenner, 65, spoke to Kim’s sisters about it inside the house

‘She’s struggling a bit with all this stuff,’ Kris noted. ‘I just don’t know how she’s dealing with the stress of it all. She’s always the calm in the storm. I think she’s got a lot on her plate.’

Kourtney and Khloé decided to throw a girl’s night for Kim to cheer her up, getting her drunk at a private dinner on the lawn.

Khloé tried to get Kim’s mind off things by asking Kourtney if she wanted to date anyone, to which Kourtney said no, admitting she had ‘hundreds’ of DMs in her inbox.

Dating life: Khloé tried to get Kim's mind off things by asking Kourtney if she wanted to date anyone, to which Kourtney said no, admitting she had 'hundreds' of DMs in her inbox

Dating life: Khloé tried to get Kim’s mind off things by asking Kourtney if she wanted to date anyone, to which Kourtney said no, admitting she had ‘hundreds’ of DMs in her inbox

‘Do you still talk to what’s-his-name?’ Khloé asked, possibly referring to Kourtney’s ex Younes Bendjima, 27.

‘No, never,’ Kourtney swore. ‘I’m feeling really content with my own way of life.’

‘And to that, cheers,’ Kim said, lifting a glass.

Good times: Kim's spirits were lifted by her sisters during her difficult time

Good times: Kim’s spirits were lifted by her sisters during her difficult time

Asked by Khloé how she was doing with Kanye, Kim said, ‘Moseying along.’

Kourtney confessed that Kanye had called her to talk days before.

‘He said, ”It would be nice to be able to say things”,’ she recounted. ‘I said, ”Yeah, say what you want to say; maybe it’ll start people thinking a certain way or getting a thought in their head, but did you have to say those Tweets publicly?/’ And he said, ”No, you’re right. I shouldn’t say that publicly. It’s better to say that one-on-one”.’

‘This is exactly what we’re not supposed to be talking about tonight,’ Khloé said, and they all proceeded to do shots, with Kim chugging a bottle of alcohol.

Drink up: 'This is exactly what we're not supposed to be talking about tonight,' Khloé said as the talk shifted to Kanye, and they all proceeded to do shots, with Kim chugging a bottle of alcohol

Drink up: ‘This is exactly what we’re not supposed to be talking about tonight,’ Khloé said as the talk shifted to Kanye, and they all proceeded to do shots, with Kim chugging a bottle of alcohol

As the night went on, the sisters jumped on a trampoline, arm-wrestled, popped confetti crackers and climbed into cardboard boxes.

‘I do not remember the last time we’ve all been this drunk together,’ Khloé observed.

The next day, she told a miraculously un-hungover Kim that the family would always be there for her, and not judge whatever she decided to do.

Full support: The next day, Khloe told a miraculously un-hungover Kim that the family would always be there for her, and not judge whatever she decided to do

Full support: The next day, Khloe told a miraculously un-hungover Kim that the family would always be there for her, and not judge whatever she decided to do

‘I think sometimes I just have to figure things out on my own,’ Kim replied. ‘I’m gonna go to Wyoming for a minute and just figure it out.’

In a confessional, Kim said, ‘My life with Kanye, I got this. I’m dealing with this on my own. It’s gonna be okay, and I love coming over to Malibu and just being as in-the-moment as possible. My sisters know that, and I love them for it.’

In February, Kim filed for divorce from Kanye after six years of marriage.

Got  this: In a confessional, Kim said, 'My life with Kanye, I got this. I'm dealing with this on my own. It's gonna be okay, and I love coming over to Malibu and just being as in-the-moment as possible. My sisters know that, and I love them for it'

Got  this: In a confessional, Kim said, ‘My life with Kanye, I got this. I’m dealing with this on my own. It’s gonna be okay, and I love coming over to Malibu and just being as in-the-moment as possible. My sisters know that, and I love them for it’

The KKW Beauty founder wasn’t the only Kardashian sibling struggling with an ex or the impact of living publicly on social media.

Khloé was upset at Scott Disick, 37, for writing under her sexy Instagram photo, ‘@realtristan13 is a lucky man.’

The tag referred to Khloé’s ex Tristan Thompson, 30, the father of her two-year-old daughter True, and had everyone wondering if they’d reconciled.

Social media: Khloé was upset at Scott Disick, 37, for writing under her sexy Instagram photo, '@realtristan13 is a lucky man'

Social media: Khloé was upset at Scott Disick, 37, for writing under her sexy Instagram photo, ‘@realtristan13 is a lucky man’

She said she’d gotten ‘a whole lot of action’ from it online—in both good and bad ways.

‘I’ve been getting bombarded with text messages, and my publicist’s saying, ”Oh my gosh, all these media outlets want answers”,’ Khloé shared. ‘Me and Tristan are still figuring things out. But I’m still trying to navigate my way through my feelings. And that’s how I want to keep it.’

The Good American founder deleted Scott’s comment and removed other tagged photos because ‘everybody is putting clowns and stuff all over me,’ she affirmed.

Media frenzy: 'I've been getting bombarded with text messages, and my publicist's saying, ''Oh my gosh, all these media outlets want answers'',' Khloé shared. 'Me and Tristan are still figuring things out. But I'm still trying to navigate my way through my feelings. And that's how I want to keep it'

Media frenzy: ‘I’ve been getting bombarded with text messages, and my publicist’s saying, ”Oh my gosh, all these media outlets want answers”,’ Khloé shared. ‘Me and Tristan are still figuring things out. But I’m still trying to navigate my way through my feelings. And that’s how I want to keep it’

Kim was aghast at the power online bullies had to shake Khloé’s confidence, and Khloé admitted that lately she’d been feeling addled by all the ‘noise.’

North West, seven, bounced into the room and smiled at her aunt as she was asked her who her favorite sibling was.

‘Psalm,’ the girl said, donning huge sunglasses. ‘He’s not that annoying.’

Favorite sibling: North West, seven, bounced into the room and smiled at her aunt as she was asked her who her favorite sibling was and she named Psalm

Favorite sibling: North West, seven, bounced into the room and smiled at her aunt as she was asked her who her favorite sibling was and she named Psalm

‘You blocking out the haters?’ Khloé teased her as she eyeballed the shades.

Scott later spoke to Tristan about the drama, and acknowledged how hard the NBA star had been working to get Khloé back.

‘I put her in this position and I have to understand that and accept that,’ Tristan said, while adding that he wanted Khloé to know: ‘Everybody that matters wants us to be happy.’

Catching up: Tristan and Scott spoke about the social media drama, and acknowledged how hard the NBA star had been working to get Khloé back

Catching up: Tristan and Scott spoke about the social media drama, and acknowledged how hard the NBA star had been working to get Khloé back

Scott felt it wasn’t fair of Khloé to try to have another child with Tristan but keep their relationship a secret, and Tristan agreed.

He pointed out that they hung out all day together, and vacationed together and slept in the same bed, adding, ‘We’re adults, and we’re basically a couple.’

Kim later reflected that Khloé ‘is so concerned with what the public is gonna think of her as a human being for taking someone back when they hurt her.’

Not fair: Scott felt it wasn't fair of Khloé to try to have another child with Tristan but keep their relationship a secret, and Tristan agreed

Not fair: Scott felt it wasn’t fair of Khloé to try to have another child with Tristan but keep their relationship a secret, and Tristan agreed

‘Being with Kanye, you have to kind of develop a thick skin,’ she added.

Tristan told Khloé that he knew he’d caused her ‘a lot of trauma, and a lot of people talked bad about you,’ but it hurt him when she disavowed their relationship.

In a confessional, Khloé said she felt ‘guarded’ around Tristan romantically, but she apologized and told him that she liked to protect the people that mattered to her.

Feelings hurt: Tristan told Khloé that he knew he'd caused her 'a lot of trauma, and a lot of people talked bad about you,' but it hurt him when she disavowed their relationship

Feelings hurt: Tristan told Khloé that he knew he’d caused her ‘a lot of trauma, and a lot of people talked bad about you,’ but it hurt him when she disavowed their relationship

‘I don’t want to overexpose certain areas of my life,’ she related,

Tristan pointed out that deleting Scott’s comment wasn’t about keeping things private but keeping a secret, and said it hurt him.

Khloé said she’d just lost her confidence altogether, offering, ‘My soul is at a breaking point for how much I can handle in regards to the public thinking they’re allowed to talk about my weight, my face, my personal life. I don’t want to hear this anymore.’

Confidence shattered: Khloé said she'd just lost her confidence altogether, offering, 'My soul is at a breaking point for how much I can handle in regards to the public thinking they're allowed to talk about my weight, my face, my personal life. I don't want to hear this anymore'

Confidence shattered: Khloé said she’d just lost her confidence altogether, offering, ‘My soul is at a breaking point for how much I can handle in regards to the public thinking they’re allowed to talk about my weight, my face, my personal life. I don’t want to hear this anymore’

To viewers, Tristan said, ‘I’m working on trying to get the old Khloé back, okay? So leave her alone, ’cause you’re screwing with my s***. Okay?’

In a more lighthearted moment on the show, Kylie Jenner, 23, was shown shooting her cameo in Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion’s hit video, WAP.

She sported a cheetah-print bodysuit, cut down to her navel with a cape attached.

Video star: In a more lighthearted moment on the show, Kylie Jenner, 23, was shown shooting her cameo in Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion's hit video, WAP

Video star: In a more lighthearted moment on the show, Kylie Jenner, 23, was shown shooting her cameo in Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion’s hit video, WAP

‘I love the cape,’ said Kris, who was on set. ‘You can wear this to the Malibu house. You might get funny tan lines though.’

Cardi B told Kris she’d literally ‘been praying to the Lord every night’ that Kylie would say yes, and at first she was too nervous to even talk to her.

‘Oh my God, I’m so excited,’ Kylie told the rapper. ‘It’s the highlight of my career. How’s your daughter [Kulture]?’

Rap star: Cardi B told Kris she'd literally 'been praying to the Lord every night' that Kylie would say yes, and at first she was too nervous to even talk to her

Rap star: Cardi B told Kris she’d literally ‘been praying to the Lord every night’ that Kylie would say yes, and at first she was too nervous to even talk to her

‘She’s good,’ Cardi replied. ‘She turns two on Friday. Your body looks… wow.’

‘I’ve gained a little quarantine weight,’ Kylie confessed.

Cardi B watched Kylie strut down the hall in her outfit, and applauded happily.

Weight gain: 'I've gained a little quarantine weight,' Kylie confessed

Weight gain: ‘I’ve gained a little quarantine weight,’ Kylie confessed

‘You’re doing amazing sweetie,’ Kris called, using her famous catchphrase.

Kylie’s sister Kendall Jenner, 25, was having baby fever all episode, wondering if it was time for her to have kids like everyone else.

Quarantining alone had made her ‘a little jealous’ she told Khloé and Malika at the Malibu house, adding, ‘I want kids badly. Soon, too.’

Baby fever: Kylie's sister Kendall Jenner, 25, was having baby fever all episode, wondering if it was time for her to have kids like everyone else

Baby fever: Kylie’s sister Kendall Jenner, 25, was having baby fever all episode, wondering if it was time for her to have kids like everyone else

Malika offered to let Kendall watch her son Ace, four months, to get experience.

As Kendall handled him, she admitted that she had no idea what to do and looked aghast as Malika explained how to change a boy baby’s diaper. 

She and Khloé took advantage of Kendall’s services to head off to McDonalds.

Diaper rules: As Kendall handled him, she admitted that she had no idea what to do and looked aghast as Malika explained how to change a boy baby's diaper

Diaper rules: As Kendall handled him, she admitted that she had no idea what to do and looked aghast as Malika explained how to change a boy baby’s diaper

The supermodel struggled to put Ace in his high chair, worried when he cried after scratching himself on her fingernails, then calmed him with a pacifier.

‘You guys, he was so easy, I swear I could have done it longer,’ she bragged when Malika and Khloé returned.

On Kim’s ‘girl’s night,’ Kendall watched True, and Kim’s kids Chicago, three, and Psalm, one.

Test run: The model struggled at first, but turned out to be a great babysitter

Test run: The model struggled at first, but turned out to be a great babysitter

Khloé warned Kendall that she couldn’t watch TV with True, that everything they did had to be ‘age-appropriate,’ and that the child was ‘potty training, so she doesn’t have a diaper on.’

Kendall joked that she wouldn’t show True the violent 2001 movie Training Day.

Hours later she got ‘nervous’ as the kids squabbled, screamed, fought and fell over in the playroom.

Good one: Kendall joked that she wouldn't show True the violent 2001 movie Training Day

Good one: Kendall joked that she wouldn’t show True the violent 2001 movie Training Day

‘I don’t know what to do now,’ she said as Kris called to check in. ‘I’m like having anxiety now.’

Trying to put all three kids to bed was ‘chaos,’ she confessed. ‘I guess this is motherhood.’

But when Kim and Khloé returned, Kendall was surprisingly upbeat.

Good job: But when Kim and Khloé returned, Kendall was surprisingly upbeat

Good job: But when Kim and Khloé returned, Kendall was surprisingly upbeat

‘If anything, this experience didn’t turn me off from having kids,’ she told the cameras. ‘It actually made me more excited.’

‘Next time, we’re gonna bring on Reign, Saint and Dream,’ Khloé threatened, referring to Kourtney, Kim, and Rob Kardashian’s slightly older kids.

Kendall said she was happy to babysit whenever, at which point Khloé and Kim snuck out again.

Keeping Up With The Kardashians will return next week on the E! network. 

Slipped out: Kendall said she was happy to babysit whenever, at which point Khloé and Kim snuck out again

Slipped out: Kendall said she was happy to babysit whenever, at which point Khloé and Kim snuck out again