Sarah Harding says she cries over never having kids and brands split from Tom Crane ‘big mistake’

Sarah Harding has revealed that she cries over never having children.

In her new book Hear Me Out, the Girls Aloud star, 39, admitted that the intense chemotherapy she’s endured in a bid to fight her cancer ‘will have killed any chance’ she I might have had of becoming a mother. 

The singer also branded her split from ex-fiancé Tom Crane as ‘one of the biggest mistakes of her life,’ and revealed that she’s ‘never stopped blaming herself.’ 

The couple dated for five years and the pair got engaged during a trip to the Maldives in 2010, but he ended things six months before their planned wedding.    

In her book, Sarah explains how she had the emotional realisation about never becoming a mother during a recent phonecall with former bandmate Cheryl.

She wrote: ‘I was saying how we never thought Nadine [Coyle] would be the first one of us to have a child, and that now three of them have kids. 

‘It might seem odd to worry about not having children when I don’t even know how much of a life I have left, but it’s there.

‘The truth is, even if my prognosis was better, it still wouldn’t be on the cards because of all the chemotherapy I’ve had.

‘That treatment, harsh as it is, will have killed any chance I might have had. It’s making me cry just thinking about it.’

Nadine, 35, is mother to daughter Anaiya; Cheryl shares son Bear, three with ex-boyfriend Liam Payne; and Kimberley Walsh, 39 – who is pregnant with her third child – is mum to sons Bobby, six, and Cole, four.

Talking about her regrets in life, Sarah explained that she ended up pushing her ex-fiancé Tom away as they endured a long distance relationship during the peak of their careers. 

The singer wrote: ‘I’ve never stopped blaming myself. Losing him was one of the biggest mistakes of my life, but we just couldn’t seem to find a way through the impasse.’     

After Sarah competed on Popstars and landed a spot in Girls Aloud, her two-year relationship with mechanic John Turnbull didn’t survive her new-found fame.

She fell into the arms of fellow Popstars contestant Mikey Green in 2002, but within a couple of years was single again

During the years that followed she was briefly linked to the likes of footballer George Best’s son Calum and Welsh T4 presenter Steve Jones.

She also crossed romantic paths with Jennifer Lopez’s ex-husband Cris Judd and dated Hollywood actor Stephen Dorff. 

In 2011, DJ Tom Crane, her boyfriend of four years, proposed in the Maldives. 

He ended things later that year, six months before their planned wedding.

In 2017 she won the final series of Celebrity Big Brother, but a three-month relationship with fellow housemate, U.S. reality star Chad Johnson, ended because of the long-distance nature of their relationship.