Tayshia Adams’ journey for love on The Bachelorette has been full of ups and downs.
On Saturday the 30-year-old reality star was wrought with mixed emotions as she penned a lengthy Instagram caption ahead of the show’s two part finale this week.
Saying she was ‘grateful’ for her past, present, and future, Adams continued to say that she has been ‘reliving so much of what made this experience challenging,’ while watching it back on TV.
Emotional: Tayshia Adams, 30, shares an emotional message ahead of the Bachelorette finale as she says the ‘ranging emotions have taken a toll on me and other times brought me so much hope’
Posting a photo of a beach sunset while home in Laguna Beach for the holidays, Tayshia gave an introspective look at her emotional state over the past few weeks.
Prefacing that the post was a ‘little long,’ she said ‘Have something on my heart I wanted to share.’
‘I woke up this morning feeling extra grateful. Grateful for my past as it has led me to the now. Grateful for the opportunities that have come into my life over the past several months, allowing endless possibilities.’
‘Most of all, I am grateful that I have had the chance to show my true authentic self, and share my heart, with all of you as you’ve watched my journey unfold.’
Pick of the bunch: The competition slowly weaned down from 16 men to her final three picks after experience a quarantine version of hometown dates last week
Tough choices: Throughout the season she bared her heart on her sleeve as she showed a range of emotions ranging from elation, to heartbroken, to frustrated
One on one: Getting to know the final four men in intimate one on one dates she got a chance to meet the men’s families
Lots of love: Throughout the season she revealed that she was definitely in love with more than one person which makes each elimination very tricky
She continued, ‘I’ll have to be the first one to admit that this whole reality tv thing isn’t easy. Being only human, sometimes all of this is taxing. The last couple weeks have been a rollercoaster to say the least!’
‘Watching the last few episodes, I’ve been reliving so much of what made this experience challenging. It’s like I’ve been going through elements of it all a second time around.’
‘That being said, at times the ranging emotions have taken a toll on me and other times brought me so much hope, cheer and joy, all in real time.’
‘But I genuinely gave it my all during the whole experience and will take something away from each of the men I had the opportunity to meet and connect with.’
Final four: Tayshia’s final four consists of Ben Smith, Brendan Morais Ivan Hall and Zac Clark before she sent Ben packing in an emotional episode
‘Thank you to all of you for being a part of this journey with me. I appreciate more than you know the immense amount of positive love and support I’ve received since the beginning, it has not gone unnoticed!’
‘It’s crazy to think the end is near, but I am excited for you to see where my heart leads me. While bittersweet, I know this is just the end of one chapter, and I can’t wait to see where life takes me next. Let’s fricken gooooooo.’
She concluded, ‘Signing off with love, your bachelorette xo.’
Previously married at a young age and divorcing her former spouse after one year, Tayshia said she was ready for love and jumped at the opportunity to come on the show following Clare Crawley’s exit.
Starting the journey off with her pick of 16 men, each week the competition grew tougher as she fell in and out of love with some of her suitors.
Crushing: Seemingly falling head over heels for Zac Clark viewers will see what becomes of their relationship as he is one of the final three in the quest for her heart
Cheers to love: Having a one on one with Ivan Hall and meeting his family the pair have continued to grow close after bonding over their mixed background
Last week Tayshia got a more intimate look at her four remaining men Ben Smith, Zac Clark, Brendan Morais and Ivan Hall, as she went on hometown style dates and met the guys’ families (who were flown to La Quinta and quarantined prior, due to the pandemic).
Eliminating Ben after an episode that aired in two parts, this week’s Monday and Tuesday finale will answer viewers’ undying question: Who will she choose?
Longtime Bachelor and Bachelorette host Chris Harrison teased in an ET interview last week that her love may not be reciprocated.
‘It’s a side of Tayshia that we don’t really get to see very often. She’s this bubbly, gorgeous woman that we always just see in this certain light. So when you see her vulnerable, when you see her brokenhearted and you see her at that level — it’s just different. It really does hit you in a different way.’
Final answer: The two-part finale will air this week on Monday and Tuesday at 8PM ET