‘I keep waiting for it to feel easier’: Dawn O’Porter candidly details her struggles with grief after the death of her close friend Caroline Flack
Dawn O’Porter has opened up about struggling with grief following the death of her close friend Caroline Flack earlier this year.
The Love Island host, who passed away aged 40, was found dead in her London home on February 15 after taking her own life.
Since her death, Dawn has regularly posted tributes to the star on her Instagram page and shared touching insights into their friendship.
Touching: Dawn O’Porter has opened up about struggling with grief following the death of her close friend Caroline Flack earlier this year
In her latest post on Tuesday, Dawn candidly detailed her experience with grief and shared an old photograph of the duo at an event together in 2015.
Alongside the image, Dawn penned: ‘This was a big night for me. Caroline showed up, as she always did. I keep waiting for it to feel easier. It doesn’t.
‘I guess this is just a feeling that a lot of us have to live with now. Grief shouldn’t feel lonely when so many billions of people have felt it, but still it does.’
Tribute: The Love Island host, who passed away aged 40, was found dead in her London home on February 15 after taking her own life
Opening up: In her latest post on Tuesday, Dawn candidly detailed her experience with grief and shared an old photograph of the duo at an event together in 2015
She added: ‘Maybe that’s because no one can replace what you lost, and everyone is someone different to everybody else.’
Reflecting on some of her friend’s favourite qualities, she said: ‘Caroline meant a lot to me. She meant a lot to a lot of people in a lot of different ways. Because she was special. That laugh. That humour. That loyalty. I miss it all.’
Dawn also speculated on how Caroline would have dealt with coronavirus isolation, and said: ‘To think she didn’t even know about any of what’s happened to the world. She’d still have worn her stick on nails in isolation, I bet. I miss you my love.’
Throwback: Last week, the author shared as snap of herself and Caroline at a party together
Last week, the author shared as snap of herself and Caroline at a party together.
She touchingly wrote in the caption: ‘Missing this one grabbing my boobs. I know it’s still so new, but I can’t imagine a day ever again, where I don’t expect her to text.’
Caroline tragically took her life at her Stoke Newington home on February 15, a day after learning the CPS would be pursuing a case of assault against her following a row with beau Lewis Burton at her home in December.
Following her passing, Dawn was one of Caroline’s many friends to post a tribute to her on social media along with a selection of photographs.
Dawn thanked her ‘funny’ and ‘silly’ friend for all the memories and added that no dance floor will ‘ever be the same again’.
If you have been affected by this story, you can call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org.
Love: Following her passing, Dawn was one of Caroline’s many friends to post a tribute to her on social media along with a selection of photographs